From Heartache to Indiference

I’ve followed the New York Knicks for over 25 years.  My first game was back during the ’88-’89 season.  I was so hyped to be in the Mecca of Basketball: Madison Square Garden.  The Knicks enjoyed a good deal of success in the 90’s, reaching the NBA Finals in ’94 and ’99 (they lost both times).  But since then, it has been a steady decline into a state of utter squalor.

The on the court performance of the Knicks used to cause me a great deal of consternation; my mood would literally be dictated by whether they were winning games or not.  My frustration would sky rocket; “How could they play so poorly?”  We got to do better against Boston when we see them again in March!”  I should have known I was too invested when I spoke about the team in the terms of “we”.  I wasn’t apart of the Knicks organization in anyway.  The 2000 – 2010 was a very dark time for the Knicks franchise.  The Isaiah Thomas regime, multiple scandals and off the court issues, terrible draft choices compounded by even worse contracts just further exacerbated things.

It was after this that I came to an amazing realization: The Knicks are not great, or even good at basketball because they don’t want to be.  All their moves, positioning, and posturing are just feints.  From top to bottom, the organization has no sincere interest in being great, because there is no incentive for them to do so as long as “loyal” fans such as myself continue to pledge our undying support and allegiance.

Think about it: if you employ a product, service, or person, your continued patronage of said item is based upon it’s performance.  Within reason, you will allow for some wiggle room and opportunity for improvement, but eventually it becomes clear that whatever it is, is what it is.  No matter how much you wanted something to be other, it is what it is.

The applications of this ground breaking concept extend far beyond the basketball court.  If something is not working for you, ask yourself why am I still dealing with this? Or better yet, does this thing that i’m so heavily invested in emotionally have any tangible bearing on my existence?  I have nothing against rooting for a team, or believing the best about a person, place, or thing and taking steps to believe the best or that it can change, but at some point these questions must be asked.

As for me and the Knicks, I’ve gone from borderline grief about a recent loss, to catching a game every now and then, to not even knowing they played last night (they lost to the Minnesota Timberwolves, one of the worst teams in the league).  When I did realize they had a game, I checked the score, shook my head, and went about my business.

2 thoughts on “From Heartache to Indiference

  1. I love the question you asked yourself…”does this thing that i’m so heavily invested in emotionally have any tangible bearing on my existence? ” When I asked myself that question I changed from being a fan (the shortening of the word fanatic) to an admirer of athletes. Since then I’ve learned about them beyond the points. Things like working through pain, self discipline (or lack thereof) etc. Now when I watch a game with the Knicks I’ll think of this blog and smile.

    1. You’re absolutely right.

      It was such a freeing experience. I too realized that being a fan-atic was out of balance with the way I wanted to live. Though I do hope they will win a title in my lifetime, the Knicks occupy the proper portion of my mind and heart.

      I’m glad to be able to bring smiles; thank you.

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